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Thursday, November 1, 2012

HOW MY ART FIXES MY LIFE ; WITH OPTIONAL OPENING STATEMENTS



OPTIONAL OPENING STATMENTS FOR TALK:

THIS HURRICANE OF TWO WEEKS AGO HAS TRIGGERED OUR COLLECTIVE MEMORIES OF UNENDING PLANETARY HORRORS, SPILLS, COLLAPSES, TAMPERINGS, TERRORISMS, MORAL UPHEAVALS, MEDICAL MISTAKES, MONETARY COLLAPSES, CLIMATE DISASTERS. ETC ETC ETC. TO ADDRESS MY ANXIETY ABOUT ALL OF THESE PAST AND ONGOING NIGHTMARES, IN 2010,I MADE A VIDEO TITLED, STARVED SURVIVORS. TWO WEEKS AGO I THOUGHT, HOW CAN I PROCEED ON THIS PANEL WITH A TALK ABOUT ME, MINE, MOI WHEN PEOPLE ARE STILL WITHOUT HEAT, LIGHT AND FAMILY MEMBERS ARE MISSING A FEW MILES FROM HERE? THEN I THOUGHT, I WILL SHOW THE VIDEO STARVED SURVIVORS (ITS ON YOU TUBE, A FREE DOWNLOAD) BUT THAT WOULD BE WRONG. WE ARE IN TOO MUCH PAIN AND TOO RAW FOR THAT VIDEO'S RESPONSE TO LOSS. SO WITH ALL DUE RESPECT TO THE NORTH EAST, I SHARE MY ORIGINAL PAPER ABOUT MY PROCESS , BUT BEFORE I DO THAT, PLEASE JOIN ME IN 1 MINUTE OF SILENT FEELING OF SUPPORT.

OPTIONAL OPENING FOR TALK HOW MY ART FIXES MY LIFE:

MY ART IS MY:
MEDICINE
HOSPITAL
THERAPIST
SCREAM
DRUG
FRIEND
PARENT
CONFESSIONAL
REFUGE
VOMIT
ER
REHEARSAL
SILENCE
MIRROR
TWIN
DISTRACTION
NURSING HOME
CRIB
PRAYER
BASINETTE
SEX
VITAMIN
DOJO
DREAM
CHURCH
SALVE
MORGUE
SHAMAN
SURGERY
SEWER
DOCTOR
PRIEST
TRAINER
BREATH
LIFE
MY ART IS MY LIFE

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HOW MY ART FIXES MY LIFE

MY ART IS A BRAIN GAME, A PRIVATE UTOPIA, A REFUGE FROM LEFT BRAIN DAILY WORRIES AND TRIALS. MY ART IS A JOURNEY TO THE SWEET ABODE OF RIGHT BRAIN PLAY. AS ARTISTS WE CHOOSE TO TRAVEL, VIA INSPIRATION, TO THE RIGHT BRAIN VIA IMAGAINATIVE GLOBAL ATTENTION(LESTER INGBER) AND ENDURING CONCENTRATION. WE DO THIS VOLUNTARILY WITHOUT NEUROLOGICALLY NEEDING A LEFT BRAIN STROKE TO CATAPULT US TO RIGHT BRAIN AESTHETIC ECSTASY. (FOOTNOTE: JILL BOLTE TAYLORS YOU TUBE EXPLANATION OF HER STROKE) WE MAKE ART TO HEAL, GET HIGH, ESCAPE, AND APPRECIATE. ART IS SCIENCE, ART IS BRAIN CHEMICALS IN ACTION, ART IS OXYCONTINED MYSTERY. ART HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY PILL, SALVE, MEDICINE, HOSPITAL AND PLACE WHERE I TAKE DAILY THOUGHTS, CELEBRATIONS, HORRORS AND TRAUMAS TO MY INNER DOCTOR SO SHE CAN MAKE MY LIFE BETTER THAN LIFE ITSELF. RECENTLY I HAVE HAD TO INTENSELY TEST AND USE MY ART MEDICINE BECAUSE 7 YEARS AGO I DEVELOPED A STRANGE BODY PHENOMENA; MY HEAD AND ENTIRE BODY TWISTED AND TURNED WITHOUT MY PERMISSION. ALTHOUGH I DID ASK, I WAS TOLD THAT I DIDNT NEED AN EXORCISM BUT THE DOCTOR NEUROLOGIST SAID THAT BOTOX INJECTIONS EVERY 3 MONTHS IN MY NECK WOULD BRING A 70% RELIEF. MY RESPONSE WAS TWOFOLD:1. LIFE: GET THE INJECTIONS AND 2: ART. SO I MADE PERFORMANCES AND 3 VIDEOS TO SELF MEDICATE AND AESTHETICALLY CURE A MEDICAL CONDITION: 
 
VIDEO 1 : MIRROR MEDICINE: ONE DAY, BENT OVER AND SPASMING, I HEARD A VOICE INSIDE SAYING TO ME: "LINDA, YOU LOOK JUST LIKE MOTHER TERESA, ALL BENT OVER AND OLD." VERY SOON AFTER I TOOK THAT MESSAGE AND IMPERSONATED MOTHER TERESA AND BY DOING SO I RECYCLED PHYSICAL PAIN AND PRESENTED IT AS ILLNESS ART. THE VIDEO YOU ARE CURRENTLY SEEING IS BY MARK SHAW AND THE GUARDIANS ARE ANDREA DOMINQUEZ, MISS TONI SILVER, ZEAH HEINMAN AND LEAH ARON.

VIDEO 2: MYTH MEDICINE; THE AMA TREATS CERVICAL DYSTONIA WITH BOTOX INJECTIONS WHICH I RECEIVE EVERY 3 MONTHS. I CANCEL OUT THE GORY DETAILS OF NEEDLES AND PAIN WITH A HALLMARK CARD-LIKE CHILDREN'S FAIRYTALE , TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THE LAW OF OPPOSITES BY USING SWEET TO NEUTRALIZE SOUR.

VIDEO 3: MIRTH MEDICINE: IN THIS VIDEO I USE ENDURED LAUGHTER TO INVITE AND TEACH OTHERS TO BRING THEIR DISTRESSES OUT OF THE CLOSET OF ISOLATION SO THAT WE CAN ALCHEMIZE IT WITH ENDURED FOOLISHNESS. I WILL SHARE A FEW OTHER EXAMPLES OF MY PROCESS AND DEMONSTRATE HOW I SCULPT ART FROM THE MATTER OF MY LIFE:

MY LIFE: 1942 BORN MIDDLE OF WINTER , MY MOTHER'S PREGNANCY DIDNT SHOW AND SHE REPORTED:" LINDA, EVERYONE WAS SHOCKED WHEN YOU WERE BORN BECAUSE NOBODY KNEW I WAS PREGANANT."
MY ART FIX: 1980'S I LIVE INSIDE, IN FULL VIEW, A CANAL STREET WINDOW FOR A WEEK 24 HOURS A DAY. I WAS BLINDFOLDED, ALONE AT NIGHT, USED A CHEMICAL TOILET AND SHOCKED MYSELF VIA MY ART.

MY LIFE; 1950'S . I SPEND EVERYDAY WITH MY 350 POUND ARTIST, OUTSIDER , COWGIRL, NON VERBAL GRANDMOTHER AND VISITED MY NON ENGLISH SPEAKING ITALIAN, IMMIGRANT CATHOLIC GRANDMOTHER.
MY ART FIX: 1975: I SIT IN FRONT OF A VIDEO CAMERA FOR A YEAR AND INTERVIEW MYSELF AS 7 DIFFERENT PEOPLE, SOME FROM OTHER COUNTRIES TO TEACH MYSELF HOW TO TALK. VIDEO: LEARNING TO TALK.

QUESTION: HOW DID YOU CREATIVELY CELEBRATE AND FIX YOUR CHILDHOOD?

MY LIFE: 1962: I LEAVE THE CONVENT WEIGHING 80 POUNDS, NONVERBAL.
ART FIX:1976; I INTERVIEW MYSELF AND 5 OTHER WOMEN WITH EATING DISORDERS. VIDEO:ANOREXIA NERVOSA

MY LIFE:1970'S: I MEET MY HUSBAND, MITCHELL PAYNE AND MY MEDITATION TEACHER, DR RAMAMURTI MISHRA.
MY ART FIX: I BEGIN ENDURANCE LIKE SITTINGS AND DANCING DRESSED AS A MORPHED ANGEL/CHICKEN/CATHOLIC SAINT/SCULPTURE SO THAT I CAN PRACTICE STILLNESS PUBLICALLY AS ART AND LEARN HOW TO BE AT PEACE WHEN NOT SUPPORTED BY AN AUDIENCE.

MY LIFE: LATE 70'S: MY EX HUSBAND IS MURDERED.
MY ART FIX: LIVE IN SILENCE FOR 2 YEARS, NO FIX BUT MAKE THE VIDEO MITCHELLS DEATH.

MY LIFE; 80'S : I RETIRE TO EASTERN MEDITATION ASHRAMS.
MY ART FIX: COME OUT OF MONASTERIES AND PERFORM A 14 YEAR CHAKRA EXPERIENCE WEARNING ONE COLOR CLOTHES EACH YEAR, SEEING PEOPLE ONCE A MONTH IN THE NEW MUSEUM WINDOW FOR 7 YEARS AND OFFERING ART/LIFE COUNSELING ......WHY? TO CREATE MY OWN VERSION OF MONASTERY.

QUESTION: HOW DO YOU CELEBRATE OR FIX YOUR CURRENT LIFE?

MY LIFE: LATE 90'S: HAVE 7 YEARS TO GET TO KNOW MY FATHER.
MY ART FIX: I BECOME A DAUGHTER AND PERFORM LIFE AS ONE FOR 7 YEARS.

MY LIFE: CURRENTLY:ORGANIZE, PACK UP, ARCHIVE, LET GO.
MY ART FIX: A DAILY JOURNEY TO THE REALITY OF IMPERMANENCE.

QUESTION: HOW DO YOU CREATIVELY PERFORM IMPERMANCE?

LET'S ADMIT IT SOME OF US ARE ARTISTS OF ART AND OTHER ARE LIFEISTS OR ARTISTS OF LIFE BUT WE ALL ARE SOME OF THESE:

REPETITION REPEATERS
SYSTEM CREATORS
ANXIETY REFRAMERS
O-CDERS
COMMUNITY BONDERS
LIFECRISIS FIXERS
TRUTH KEEPERS
MIGHTY FOCUSERS
SYMBOL SEEKERS
MYSTICAL SCHMOOZERS
SCAM SMELLERS
WORSHIP LOVERS
CHARMING HYPNOTIZERS
TRAUMA RE-ORGANIZERS
PURIFICATION ENACTERS
HOLY HAZERS
CONSCIOUS PERFORMERS
ECSTASY TRANCERS
SPIRITUAL MINISTERS
RIGHT BRAIN ADDICTORS
SECURITY STRUCTURERS
BODY MORPHERS
ENERGY NEUTRALIZERS
DEPRESSION PREVENTERS
ZEALOUS PASTORS
ROBOTIC REPEATERS
SOCIAL BONDERS
COMPULSIVE ENACTERS
MORAL RESTRAINERS
DEMON EVICTORS
DEATH DE-CONFIGURERS

VIDEO 2: (EXPLAIN BY READING THE DESCRIPTION ABOVE.) I NEED 3 VOLUNTEEERS TO AGREE HOW LONG WE CHOULD SEE THIS TAPE.

VIDEO 3: (EXPLAIN BY READING THE DESCRIPTION ABOVE.)

MY CURRENT WORK IS ABOUT THE AGING PERFORMANCE ARTIST'S BODY AND IMPERMANENCE. IF I AM PERCHANCE TO END UP IN A NURSING HOME BEING TAKEN CARE OF BY A NURSING ASSISTANT, I WANT TO CLEAR OUT MY OWN NEUROTIC HOSTILITY NOW, SO THAT I DONT INFLICT UNNECESSARY NEGATIVITY ON MY CNA. I WILL SING THE CNA SONG ALONG WITH AND ON TOP OF THE DYSTONIA VIDEO. DOUBLE FUSION MEDICINE.

A REAL LIFE SONG FOR YOUR CERTIFIED NURSING ASSISTANT

PRAY FOR MY CNA, O LORD, PRAY FOR MY CNA
PRAY FOR MY CNA , OH LORD, PRAY FOR MY CNA

SHE COMES TO THE HOME EVERYDAY
45 OF US TO LOVE
SHE BRINGS US LIGHT, WE NEVER PAY
SHES A GIFT FROM UP ABOVE

PRAY FOR MY CNA OH LORD, PRAY FOR MY CNA PRAY
FOR MY CNA OH LORD, PRAY FOR MY CNA

WE CALL AND SHOUT NURSE NURSE COME HERE
FOR EVERY BODILY NEED
I'VE GOT THE BEDPAN DEAR DON'T FEAR
AND THEN 45 MOUTH'S I'LL FEED

PRAY FOR MY CNA OH LORD OH LORD PRAY FOR MY CNA
PRAY FOR MY CNA OH LORD, PRAY FOR MY CNA

SOME SCREAM AND SHOUT EVERY NIGHT
IN SWEATY HALLUCINATIONS
MORALS, TEETH, AND HAIR ARE GONE
THE DARK STEALS TREPIDATION

PRAY FOR MY CNA OH LORD PRAY FOR MY CNA
PRAY FOR MY CNA OH LORD, PRAY FOR MY CNA

BODIES NOW BONES PORES ARE STINKING
HOLOCAUSTED INTO SLIME
MY DEATH SKULL ROARS THERE IS NO MORE
GOODBYE OH GHOST OF TIME!!!!!

PRAY FOR MY CNA OH LORD PRAY FOR MY CNA
PRAY FOR MY CNA OH LORD, PRAY FOR MY CNA

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